Returning to the Innocence of the Beloved


No matter what has happened in your life, you always have an invitation from love. Love is not limited or “conditionalized” in our experience. We never have to earn or prove who we are in order to be loved; love is infinite. The present moment is love and we, ourselves, in true nature are the present moment, therefore we are the voice frequency of love. It is simply what we have always been, underneath it all. This is our innocence. It has been buried underneath the density experiences of human conditions and limitations of love, which silences the voice (of love).

The silencers of the voice of love come from our lesson experiences, fears, listening to ‘belief’ identities of the systematic ‘thinking’ ego, and the separation from the ever expanding ‘truth’ of the heart. As we dive deep into the full expression of our lesson experiences along our earth journey and swim the channel of the Nile from the thinking mind, to the opening entrance of the feeling and intelligence of the heart, we return to the boundless love of what has always been. We have then returned to the intimacy of our innocence and begin hearing and listening to the voice of love. We rediscover the difference between belief versus truth. Belief is the creation and control of someone else’s experience, something that has already happened from the past, but we live in the present moment. Inner truth is the present moment and the voice of love, which is the formless experience aligned with your own wisdom and knowledge for your work with humanity, the reason you are here now.

But, how do we begin our way back to the voice of love and the boundless innocence of our true heart expression?

I sat with this question for a moment in my heart and felt how do I put this into the words that are arriving through what I have experienced in my own infinite journey and reconnecting to my inner spirit? I heard Alista, one of the shamanic elders guides I work with say, “The experience and wisdom you are looking for is in the Rose Garden.” Which is a sign there are multiple experiences about to happen beyond the physical experience of being in the Rose Garden. So begins my twenty-minute, walking, journey to the community Rose Garden.

This Rose Garden is one of my favorite places to be because it illuminates love from the hundreds and thousands of roses in the garden. Plus, Rose Medicine is incredibly healing for opening the heart and pours out deep loving wisdom for the wellbeing of our lives and humanity.

As I cross the walking bridge  into the Rose Garden I could feel and hear Kuan Yin, the goddess of compassion, walk through my heart and saying, “Welcome! Notice the expression of love and wisdom radiating through your heart as you begin your journey. Welcome to the experience. You are here for the wisdom through the space between.”  She points in the direction of the back side of the Rose Garden which faces the woods. When I walked by a group of trees, I felt the love and awareness of Gaia – the Earth Mother as if the earth was pouring out harmony and grace with my arrival. I sat down on a short stone edge for a grouping of roses. I removed my shoes and socks placing my feet on the green dew covered grass. I thought to myself, “ I might as well do some Earthing and Shamanic breathwork while I am here, waiting for the arrival of wisdom for my writing piece.

The more I started to connect to the earth with the Shamanic breathwork, I felt the opening of one shared space with the earth and I heard Gaia say through a deep vibration in the heart, “Listen and notice the natural path through my heart. What do you feel?”

“I feel stillness, expansion, compassion and love. Its moving through the full experience of my body, as if my body is the entire experience of the natural path through your heart, Gaia!”, I said.

I could feel her smile with ease and compassion. She then said, “Listen.”

I took a moment, to deeply listen beyond the physical plane and let myself arrive at the back of my heart, into the stillness matrix. I even listened deeply to the sound of stillness, beyond the language meaning.  I could hear and see Alista playing a drum with the rhythm tones of the energy field around my heart and my own heartbeat. Through this alignment I could feel the frequency of the words Gaia spoke to me as one shared space, feeling my own heart as one in the same with the Earth Mother. I was feeling the soothing experience of centering and grounding with the frequency of nature’s stillness wisdom through my heart.

At that moment on the surface, it was as if the birds currently singing, turned up their volume and it sounded like, in that moment, there were many more of them. This created a deep, flowing, frequency in my heart of expansion, like my heart became the full  size of the universe – one still space of listening.

Then my attention both physically and energetically was on two Robins at the edge of the woods, who were feeding. My focus was on what they were doing to find their food. They would turn their heads slightly towards the earth to deeply listen while being still in the present moment, then they would pull a bug or worm out of the ground. After I watched them for a while, they both made eye connect with me at the same time and I realized they were the main teaching guides for the wisdom
I needed.

To arrive at the entrance of opening the heart with the presence moment of boundless love, we must listen deeply for the feeling vibration of the voice of love.  By listening in and through stillness, as a natural source of nurturing and feeding the open of love, we swim our way into the cave entrance of the spiritual heart and experience the returning (maybe for the first in this lifetime) of the “innocence of the beloved”. You are the experience – the beloved of one shared space. This is not a discovery, this is who you have always been, underneath it all.

Humanity needs you to show up in the physical with who you have always been, underneath it all. You are the innocence of the beloved.



Mother Ocean, Dolphins and the Presence of Sound Frequency


Several months ago on a Saturdays when I was still living near the ocean, I felt the call from spirit to go out into nature to do some Earthing.  It was one of those moments when I was not sure where that was going to be. So I headed out on my bike, pedaling my way, following spirit to see where we would end up. They always lead me to the most beautiful places. Sometimes, it is a place I am very familiar with and other times it’s a place of hidden beauty. There is always a reason why I am being shown the location. Spirit is about the timing and placement; this journey was no different. After being on my bike for a while it was clear where they were leading me. It was also very obvious that this journey was about the right timing as there were delays that were unusually longer than they needed to be. However, these delays were perfect for connecting to stillness and being in the presence of the moment, biking out in nature. It was the perfect day with amazing weather and illuminating energy.

This journey was to the ocean at Coronado beach. I arrived at the harbor to catch the ferry to Coronado. Typically, the ferry is never late. However, on this day it was about five minutes late and it seemed there was a much longer delay than usual getting everyone aboard the vessel. Although, it was perfect, because being on the harbor water is always healing and peaceful.

Once we arrived on the island, it was time to bike to the other side of the island where the long ocean beach is located. As I headed out, I noticed that there were several delays again in my journey. I arrived at the beach, locked my bike up in the bike rack, and headed toward the vast beauty of the deep blue ocean. I started out by walking the shoreline as I always do, to greet and send gratitude to mother ocean. Walking the shoreline is an amazing form of Earthing. After walking for about five minutes, I was stopped by spirit. I figured this was my spot on the beach. I walked toward the heart of the sandy beach, dropped off my beach gear, and headed towards the water. The ocean was magical with its deep blue, illuminating energy and color. As I started to walk towards the water, I notice a tingly feeling in my heart region. My heart and thymus frequency was expanding beyond the feeling of an energetic vortex; this felt like pulsating sacred circles, like it was moving to the beat of musical rhythm. The feeling started to intensify even more and my third eye began to pulsate like a growing wave. I started to see hues of colored frequency separate through my third eye and in the center of those hues were dimensional lenses. As I was focused on surrendering through the frequency of the hues, they were opening states of multiple layers of compassion and deep emotion in my heart. I felt deeply loved with healing and a shift in multi-dimensional consciousness.

I waded into the ocean about waist deep, stopped, and felt the amazing sound and frequency of the ocean. It was purifying and relaxing. My body was in a meditative state of harmony. I felt pulled to look out in the water a ways. To my amazement, there was a large pod of dolphins swimming around, splashing, playing, and fully jumping out of the water directly ahead and at a close distance to me. I was a bit surprised, honored and excited that they were so close. I could feel their healing energy frequency, illuminating and dancing through my body. My third eye felt as if it was expanding as large as the ocean, and it felt as though it was ready to jump in the ocean to greet the sacred dolphins.

The subtle shaman as the dolphin: The dolphin helps you shift your frequency from the energetic deathing process, to surrender, to birthing, and the revealing of your new found space between – soul wisdom and knowledge. The dolphin carries you to the next dimension level of your awakening consciousness, helping you live through the window of your soul on earth. The dolphin also helps us to heal the heart and expand the field of compassion that radiates as a natural source of who we are. The compassion field illuminates through your heart as the sacred unity of spirit and earth as the ocean web of oneness. Through sound healing of the dolphin’s sounds, which is a higher pitch frequency that helps your body and nervous system return to the rhythm of the soul, raising your consciousness and helping you to activate/initiate the galactic heart.  The dolphin’s sounds will help you raise, open, and activate your higher state of cosmic spiritual consciousness. Overall the dolphin helps you walk in your unity space of spirit, cosmic and earth as an infusion of one shared formless space of soul presence.

The dolphins stayed in a central location directly in front of me for a while. Then, they swam to the left of me. I figured that they were moving on with their journey. I was grateful for having this experience with them. I decided to work on some sound channel frequency healing with the ocean. When I do this, my focus and awareness journey in and through the ocean’s frequency, and I allow the sounds of the ocean to move through my soul voice, activating the rhythm of my soul through my nervous system. This is a process of shifting into the frequency of the ocean, which requires a lot of surrendering. This time, it was more intense than in the past. Not only was I sensing the expression of the ocean’s frequency, but there were direct sound waves of dolphins. Sure enough, the dolphins were back in their location in front of my gaze where they remained for a while longer, jumping fully out of the water. I kept with the sound channel and it was powerful with healing. After sometime, they swam further out and circled to the left, to make a sacred circle. As they made what appeared to be a sacred circle, their frequency with the ocean activated a memory of many sacred shamanic sound ceremonies of the past that I have participated in and opening further my spiritual and galactic heart. The elder dolphins were making it a point to communicate with me, explaining that the memory was about sharing the sacred shamanic sound ceremony with other Earth “wayshowers”. Their appearance lasted for about forty-five minutes, then they disappeared into the deep blue. I felt gratitude for the sacred Earthing experience with the dolphins.

I had not expected my journey with spirit to go Earthing on that Saturday would involve a visit and Earthing healing from the sacred dolphins. Dolphins have always been a big part of my life. In my twenties, they helped me with a large part of my reawakening spiritual journey and to practice gentle presence through wave frequency.

The dolphins are amazing sacred guides, healers and teachers. So amazing and blessed we are to be sharing the earth with them.